A False Pretense - Oliver Sykes Voice

Verse:
I was healed and a whole
Until you decided to rip my heart
(screams) From my chest
You're only a liar, only a (screams) liar

We could have been great
In this God forsaken place
But you let me
(screams) Down

Chorus:
Burry me in the ground
And mark my name on a stone
Hatred burns deep inside
(screams) For only you my love

Take your whiskey and choke
Take these pills and (low screams) overdose
Fight through all your feelings
'Till you die of (low screams) depression

Verse:
Forget all these fucking words
You said you (screams) loved me
Now I'm drowning in this sea
Of endless fucking (screams) blood

You can drink all that alcohol
And pass out ont he bathroom floor
Wake up to the living dead
With your lungs (low screams) ripped out

Chorus:
Burry me in the ground
And mark my name on a stone
Hatred burns deep inside
(screams) For only you my love

Take you whiskey and choke
Take these pills and (low screams) overdose
Fight through all your feelings
'Till you die of (low screams) depression

Verse:
You always said I meant everything
But you were only fucking (screams) lying
I'm all alone (screams/echoes) all alone
(background screams) With a bloody, broken heart

Tell all your friends
How I'm a walking disgrace
(low screams) It's time for all the misery
(screams) To suffocate me

Chorus:
Burry me in the ground
And mark my name on a stone
Hatred burns deep inside
(screams) For only you my love

Take your whiskey and choke
Take these pills and (low screams) overdose
Fight through all your feelings
'Till you die of (low screams) depression

Closing:
(background voice) You said I meant everything
Now your marking my name on a stone
Take your whiskey (screams) and choke
Take these pills and (low echo screams) overdose

Untitled

I am afraid of this feeling
This feeling of belonging
Of the truth that lies
Between the bridge of happiness

This is a step towards forever
And a long- run from never
I know this is a cliche but
I'm in love with you

Your beauty is a never-ending thing
And you're nothing but the perfect gentlemen
You have the manners of an Angel
With overpowering temptation of the Devil

Why am I so drawn to you?
It's like a magnet is pulling me in
And I have no will power to turn away
From this blinding love spell you create

Love is a nature of gratitude,
To be thankful of someone like you
To accept without hesitation
Each others flaws we were born with

You are the line dividing Heaven and Hell
The line I walk along gracefully
You enhance my morals of right and wrong
You keep me safe by default without noticing

You make being a secret ninja look easy
But we both know it takes a lot of skills
To get the gravy and be stealth at it
Why do I love you? Because you amaze me

Some people say being breath-taking is irrelevant
But you prove them wrong every second you live
I can't take it how you're so selfless and
It drives me insane how your so intelligent

Butterflies when I'm flustered is what you give me
Your elegant touch is a system of fireworks
What did I do to get a man like you?
Was it the day I say, "I like your shirt"?

You are the barrel to my gun
The trigger that's pulled connects me to you
With supersonic waves saying, "I love you"
As I adventure towards eternity with you

I could go on for hours about you
About how much I care for you
All it takes is for someone to listen
To how we came to be in love today

But considering how I'm a fool for you
I should stop spilling my heart out
To you on this colourless page
But remember this lullaby before you sleep

'The man upstairs, whom some call God
Must have been looking out for us after all
He is the reason an earth quake happened
To reset you on the path to your destiny'

The End

I must be in a dungeon,
I can't see any source of light
Nothing is clear to me in here
Just an illusion of my fears

Maybe this is my destiny
A fatal death to endure in
Is there a dragon to burn me to ashes
A few more seconds, the light in my eyes will go out

Emotionless faces flash before me,
Some of innocene and some of disturbance
I can hear the old grandfather clock
It must be time for the praised suicide

My heart is racing and my palms are sweaty
Perhaps I'm nervous for an unknown reason
But enough of these foolish thoughts,
It's time to depart this shit hole for hell

I wonder if I'll be tortured there
Slashed with chains till I bleed
Maybe I'll decay in the ground
And have no after-life journey

Love is non-existant,
An excuse to have pre-marital sex
A broken heart is a phantom
That haunts the souls of many

It flies from person to person
Like an untreated disease
The infected have dillusions
Of mistaken pain and lust

I can hear the whispers in my head again
There taunting me with cruel laughter
"Are you gunna do something
Or just stand there and bleed?"

I can hear footsteps outside my cell
It must be society coming to suffocate me
The minutes are passing by, changing slowly
I can feel blood pumping inside my head

My vision is going in and out of focus,
Flashing colours of red and orange
Whiping through all the shades like a tornado
The countdown is on, for an unleashed explosion

Listening to the clock ticking away my time,
My heart quickens, pumping blood through multiple organs
A false sensation of hope washes over you
Telling me my mission on earth is at the end

Tears are starting to escape from my eyes
Although I'm not afraid to die this way,
I'm not at ease with leaving this prision
Without a meaningful goodbye.

Untitled

Why do we live with rights?
Is it to keep us safe at night,
Or to free us from violation?
That lingers in the darkness

What is the reason for war,
Is it to gain control of others
A selfish desire to dominate?
In a perfect world peace would rein through all

The idea of a leader is bullshit,
Surviving in a society with others is natural;
People work together to fulfill their wants
Not isolating themselves and being violent

"Everything is just by government"
Does that mean Hitler killing Jews was right?
Does that mean it's ethical to kill,
Even if the saying is "an eye for an eye"?

Why do people commit adultery?
Is loving only one person not enough?
Selfish lust and gluttony is responsible
There's no wonder why affairs are frowned upon

Why is everything efficent?
Is it because they'll crash and burn if they aren't?
Usually I'd day fuck it all and be an anarcist
But ground rules of law are needed for order

There are new establishments everywhere in the country
This goes to show we like to pollute our planet
Why doesn't anyone try and stop it?
'Cause the world's too god damn lazy and selfish

Now don't get me wrong,
I have my morals of right and wrong
But this world is too corrupt
To adventure it alone.

Secrets Exposed

I have something important to tell you
I've just discovered it recently
Forgive me for what I'm about to say
All this pressure is making me shake uncontrollably

So here I go, this is me spitting it out
You're dating a Satanist.
There I said it, you can kill me now
But please, this is the hardest thing I've ever said

I can feel my heart pounding
And every nerve inside me is shaking
I didn't exactly plan for this to happen
But inside I always knew something was missing

Now I told you this in confidence,
Confident about having you love me
No matter who I am or what I believe
But now I'm not so sure about this

Nothing seems to work anymore
I'm losing you as a best friend
And I know deep down inside you can feel it
I've become nothing more than you girlfriend

These weeks spent away from each other
Used to make us closer, but lately
I feel as if they're been tearing us apart
Face it, we've been losing our special connection

You promised things would never change between us
I don't know if I should believe those words anymore.
I miss the boy who got the butterflies in his stomachs,
The boy who I know ever detail of and vise versa

I suppose all I want is you,
You and everything we used to be
You're my best friend and I love you
We started dating to keep us strong

Truth is, you're my knight in shining armour.

Peter Stratton 2

Nothing you say will make it 'okay'
I'll let him hunt you down,
Rip your body apart, piece by piece
As you lay bleeding in the dirt.

Nothing you do will make it 'okay'
Let me personally take this time to say farewell
To a boy who was never a man at all
And this is the time to say our goodbyes.

Nothing you say...
Oh fuck it, what's the point?
You're still out there, searching for prey
But guess what? You're not suffocating me.

Speak your mind, maybe throw another punch
Do anything you want, it won't even matter,
I'm gonna hunt you down with a machete in my hand,
Kick your face in and slam you on the ground.

Ever since you were born you were a disgrace
Everything I said to you, were emotionless lies.
I'm taking back my freedom, my voice to destroy you
You won't feel a thing when my fists turn you to dust.

He love me, and he's hurting because of what you did
Can you live with the fact that he's seaching for you?
Waiting until he can crush your bones in his hate?
Or is it when he's thinking about taking a saw blade to your face.

When the police come looking for you in the darkness
They won't be able to find anything other than your blood spatter,
We'll dig you a grave and shove your body in it
"How did Peter die?" well, he was in an accident.

Can you hear yourself? Choking on the blood in your throat?
It's only a matter of time until you stop breathing
Are you getting scared now? Maybe a little sick to your stomach?
Ha, I doubt it. Your thinking about the girls you wanna fuck up.

Oh this is fun. Sweet, harmless, innocent fun.
Would you like a napkin for all the blood your coughing up?
No? Okay, then let's proceed.
You're going to be in ashes, ground up and cremated, no one will know you.

A Higher Power.

Drinking this glass of water
I feel like an alcoholic,
Looking as these scissors
I feel like a murderer,

What's happening to me
Am I loosing my mind?
All I know is being ripped from under me
I wan to end this nightmare,

But I promised someone
I would stay till the end
But what if I can't stand the pain
And break down along the way?

If only the world would change
We could find a way to breathe,
The dagger in our heart
Would be silenced forever,

I'm connected to him like no one else
It's a way to keep us holding on
I can't wake up and be normal
I will never be what society wants of me,

My life feels like a horror movie
I'm the poor innocent girl
And everyone else are the monsters
I'm trying to escape from

I don't have a guardian angel
Sometimes I wish I did
Maybe then life would be better
But for now I'm stuck hiding under covers

Music is the only escape
A little screamo here and there
And I'll try to pretend everything's alright
Before I get slaughtered at midnight,

Where do we go life after death
Is it the praised heaven?
Or the darkened hell?
Either way our bodies hit the floor,

I used to think everyone was different
But when tradity hits
We all act the same way
Our dealth is our independance,

Christ isn't the saviour
And God's a scared bastard
Hiding from the darkness within people
He doesn't create miricles, he only kills people,

I'm not an Atheist
But so help me God, things have got to change
Why did you make all the world wars happen?
You're supposted to bring light not darkness over people,

Justice is only revenge in different words
Once upon a time, God had an angel
He disobeyed and fell from glory
He's now the devil we're all scared of,

I'm not an addict but I wish I was
I don't wear a halo but maybe it'd be cool
I'm not intelligent but I'm not stupid either
I'm just your regular suicidal girl.

Unknown Song.

Verse One:
Cut your wrists and black your eyes
To show your broken soul inside,
You'll put your heart in a box
And send it to my door,
You cover the box with feelings
Until you start to cry.

Verse Two:
It must be hard to live here
Surrounding yourself with hatred and fear,
Silence echoes off the walls
Screaming dissappointment in your face
Your gasping for air as your lungs collapse,
Your too busy screaming to notice
Blood on the floor.

Chorus:
Laying in silence
Your world comes crashing down,
There's no one to save you
No one to stop the suffering,
Your world is crashing down
And your laying paralized.

Bridge:
Your too young to lose your mind
This world is too cold
It does nothing but destroy,
Your so numb you can't feel anything
She run through your mind
As you lay in the corner
With black around your eyes.

Chorus:
Laying in silence
Your world comes crashing down,
There's no one to save you
No one to stop the suffering,
Your world is crashing down
And your laying paralized.

Verse Three:
(Whispered) There's no one to save you
(Whispered) No one to stop the suffering,
Your world is crashing down
your left without tomorrow.

My Apology

Please just tie me up
And shove me into a coffin
And burry me alive down in the ground,
I only deserve to die.

I fucked up beyond comparison
Nothing can make this deed go away
And I'm left here sitting in regret
Wonderin' if you'll ever forget what I did

You trusted me with all your heart
And within a few drags it all fell apart
My sincere sorry's don't change anything
I love you so can I make up for what I did?

Please tell me I'm horrible
And that I don't deserve you
'Casuse I don't and
You deserve so much better

Don't look into my eyes
It's residue of my lie
A broken promise
That eats me away inside

Please just tie me up
And shove me into a coffin
And burry me alive down in the ground,
I only deserve to die.

Drown me in bloody water
Hear my screams suffocate me
Please let me die in the darkness
After all I'm just a waste.

I don't deserve to live
I don't deserve to live
I don't deserve to live
I only deserve to die.

Jonathan's Song.

Verse One:
I hope when it's raining,
You close your eyes and hear the sounds.
While you think of me
In every possible way

Listen intensely as your heart beats
The fire in your soul will burn bright
Ashes of loving debris will fall
Feel the residence of the warmth

Chorus:
You give me my intuition of life and death
You're the safe harbour when I'm lost in wander
Lend me your hand and we'll walk away
To a safe place away where nothing can hurt us

Let's put a pause on everything around us,
And listen to this feeling growing inside us
We're strong and passionate
Let our spirits comfort us in times of darkness

Verse Two:
Why do I keep reading between the lines
Scared as to what I might find
But if there is no back story,
Than what am I always stressing to find?

No one is here except for each other
Let me tangle my hands with yours
Lay my head on your chest
Listen to your blood pump in the silence.

Chorus:
You give me my intuition of life and death
You're the safe harbour when I'm lost in wander
Lend me your hand and we'll walk away
To a safe place away where nothing can hurt us

Let's put a pause on everything around us,
And listen to this feeling growing inside us
We're strong and passionate
Let our spirits comfort us in times of darkness

Bridge:
You used to be cold inside, trapped and emotionless
Now your emotions run free with butterflies inside
Nothing can touch you except the wind on your face
Give me your hand and travel forward, don't hold back

Chorus:
You give me my intuition of life and death
You're the safe harbour when I'm lost in wander
Lend me your hand and we'll walk away
To a safe place away where nothing can hurt us

Let's put a pause on everything around us,
And listen to this feeling growing inside us
We're strong and passionate
Let our spirits comfort us in times of darkness

Verse Three:
Feel me beside you as we lay in bed
The warmth we share as we move as one
And you think nothing could ever be as beautiful
As the body resting in your arms

Love is a tragic game you learn to play
You even fall down along the way
But when you heal, your stronger than ever
Let this love you found grow wild.

Chorus:
You give me my intuition of life and death
You're the safe harbour when I'm lost in wander
Lend me your hand and we'll walk away
To a safe place away where nothing can hurt us

Let's put a pause on everything around us,
And listen to this feeling growing inside us
We're strong and passionate
Let our spirits comfort us in times of darkness

(Whispers)
Lend me your hand and we'll walk away
To a safe place away when nothing can hurt us
We're strong and passionate
Let our spirits comfort us in times of darkness

Dedicated To Jonathan

Black engulfs the darkened soul
Leaving emotions hidden below
The heart is cold to the touch
Iced blood pumps through the organ.

The body is the canvas for an inkless pen
Contraversial self expression
A wardrobe of black, but you don't understand
Your words are slowly carving out permanent holes

Exposed to the world by human flesh
Shades of red drip onto the ceramic floor
These spoken words are smiple comfort
The holes heal over and form into scars

Sincere words wash away all the hurt
Seeing you stand in front of me makes me colour blind
Let me see your soul that you hide inside
And that heart that keeps you alive

Drink up my way of life
Feel my heart beat underneath your hands
Your halo is held up by devil ears
The rising sun will burn right through you

Look up into the sky and see the light
It's time for you to let go of the past
All of the hurt and all of the lust
Your time is now, so common' move on

For Jonathan

I've been holding this emotion
Inside of me for quite a while
But I'm going to take a chance
And let what's inside go free,

You probably already know
What these unspoken words are
If it's not how your scene
Then I can leave, as long as you know,

I have an internal conflict
You've shown me the path
That I intend to travel on
But where does this trial lead to?

I have a confession to make
I like you more than I should
And one day you're gonna know
But don't let it effect the way we are now,

Romantic writing is something I lack
So please try not to laugh,
Your not like anyone I've ever met
I say that in the most sincerest way I can,

I have a secret
And it's time for you to hear it
Pace yourself before you know
These words that fly from my mouth,

I think I'm falling
Head over heels for you
'Cause I thought hot damn
When you walked in the room.

Poem For Shit

Tell me what's so wrong
With dating my bestfriend
Is it that your jealous
Or are you mad about the past?

Either way you should let it go
Take in a deep breath
And get lost in the oxygen
Let it out and move on,

Nothing your doing
Is making me cringe,
Making me afraid of
What will happen at school,

Go do something with your life
Make some new friends
Or go play in the street
Your ransom is garbage,

Stop trying to act all tough
'Cause your being a fool
Take all your jealousy
And throw it away,

I can't be the mean girl
That's just not me
So take all your rubbage
And walk away,

I'm done writing this
Infact it's making me
Feel a bit depressed
Goodbye my old friend.

My Suicide Note

I look down at this peice of paper
Who are you, what are your goals?
I'm a girl dressed in black, I have no goals
Honestly that's all I am, all I know.

Everyone knows who they are
Who they're going to be
The thought of agony and displacment
Has never occured in their minds.

If you feel lost in this world
This poem is for you
Life is a twisted game we all play
Some live through it, some die trying.

If I could pick what I looked like
Or the blueprint of my destiny
I would be happy, beautiful
But I'm not nor will I ever be.

Maybe I cut my wrists to relieve my pain
Is that such a bad thing?
My family says it's stupid
I say it's my own classification.

The love I've held for others has disapeared
It's been replaced with angry tears
Don't think I hold feelings for people
I don't have sympathy for them anymore.

Everyone is an example of the seven sins
Proud, jealous, violent, whiny, greedy, honry
We're all programed the same
So why is everyone labeled different?

Look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself
What kind of person am I?
Most of you will lie and say the opposite answer
But what are you hinding from, your innerself?

Most often than not
You'll hear about a murder on the news
You think 'awe how sad' and flip the channel
But have you ever thought about that victims life?

Don't tell me I'm something I'm not
Cause i'll do everything just to prove you wrong
I'm not your little sterotype that you labeled
I'm the kind of person that stands out of the crowd.

Happy, joyfull, pleasant
That's what everyone is
Broken, disturbed, angry
This is what I am.

I have no soul only debris inside my bones
Let me lash out my sarrow
Rip off my sweater and see
The cuts that feed me inside.

I'm so sick of this sadness
Nothing will ever make it go away
Look into my eyes and see darkness
My tears are invisible to everyone expect me.

The silence is in black and white
The apocolypse is above us and you can feel it
I'll be dead before the sun rises
You'll carry on just like before you met me.

Let this be my suicide note
Carry on until your old and grey
Become famous and show your talent
Don't shed tears for my misfortune.

I love you the most in this world
But let me take these pills
And cut out my heart, let me
Drink a bottle of jack and let go of my pain.

I'll wait for you after I'm gone
But you have to live your year
Don't worry you'll be great
I hate to leave like this,

But maybe it's fate
Goodbye Jonathan Elbaz
My only one true friend
Carry on until the end.

For Jonathan

I know there must be a reason as to why
My life is beyond messed up
I wish I could end it right here and now
But I promised him I would stay another year 'round,


Society will never understand me
I'm just a fucked up psychopath in their minds
And I've finally grown to realize
That the best way to resolve this is to end life,


Now believe me when I sau that I've gone crazy
I'm lost all my sanity
So common' show me what you've got
Cause no matter what I'll always be frowned upon,


Some people say they know me
But maybe they just know of me
Either way they know me
And what they think is either good or bad,


I wish I could fly away to a nice place
Where I would be accepted
Ha, yeah right,
Society will always bring me down,


So burn me at the stake
Take in the send of my burning flesh
Let my blood burn in my viens
Before i come to my eternal rest,


If my heart would only heal
Maybe I would say 'I love you'
It's time for things to change,
So draw your weapon to start this game


Some people say it's medival
I say it's my generation of life
Let me kill you with my passion
Beofre I go to hell for the night,


Some people say that
The grass is greener on the other side
So is that my own personal heaven
Or just my desecrated hell?


Forgive me while I say this
But what is so awesome in this live we've created
When we feel true pain in our soul
Why do we create everything to die with nothing?


Everything's so complicated
Complicated as hell,
Let's burn down the town
And free all the people in jail cells,


We'll walk around on this ground
With our fists held high in the air
Our freedom will ring off the walls
Voices of pain will be heard once and for all.

Peter Stratton

I hate everything you brought into my life
And I hate everything you left my life as,
I can see you being happy with no guilt
But I will always remember to curse your name,


Let me rewind back into the past
Shall I elaborate on the promises
You left behind, the ones you broke in pride
They shattered with all of your lies,


Let me pick up my heart that you ripped apart
Cause now it's time for me to make a new start
Begin a new life with new dreams
But with non that'll include you,


I'm gonna rip up all of our pictures
Throw all of your gifts in the trash
Along with all of the bullshit you've said
I'll watch them burn in the flames,


If you think your gonna get me back
You've got another thing comin'
I'll have you face down on the ground
Even before you see it happening,


All that shit you said is just another excuse
To make me look like a fool infront of your friends,
I know all the lies that you hide
But in your head I'm just a rebound for your pride,


I won't be there in the daylight
I won't be there when your lonely at night,
You may have fucked around with me before
But I'm done being used so don't knock on my door,


I've had time to think about you
But I learned to let you go,
I've found other guys and they're
Nothing like you and I'm glad for that,


It's time to say farwell
And move on with our lives
Your such a fucking ass
I'm glad you left me behind.

Your Suicide Note.

I’m sorry this is our last goodbye

If it wasn’t so tragic and depressing

Maybe the world would stop to listen

But your leaving instead.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ll miss you

But if this is your fate

Your one true desire

Then flick the switch and let go.

Nothing will ever change society

But maybe there’s something that could help us cope,

Are you ready to lay your head down for eternal rest?

Cause I don’t think I’m ready to loose my best friend just yet.

The burdens you lay on the ground

Are remainders of the pain you’ve lived through

Leave me now or stay by my side

What will your parents say once you’ve died?

I’m just saying my thoughts in a way I know how

But if I mean anything to you, say it out loud

Let the world hear you before you take those pills

The C- train will come soon but not until you say the truth.

If I put more words down on this page, you’ll already be goe

I’m sorry I was a footnote in your suicide note

This is a farwell and the last hello

I love you because of all that you are.

I’m your best friend and you are mine

I’ll follow you to hell, so wait for me on the outskirts

I love you Jonathan Elbaz,

This is my final goodbye.

The Clouds Are Closing Over

I look at everyone else

If I could only laugh in their face

None of them have felt pain

They all have perfect lifes.

You can’t judge me from apperance

Only from how I feel inside,

Maybe you know what makes me tick

Or perhapes it’s your scientific guess.

The snow on the ground feels like my soul

Isolated and cold,

What will it take to make the sun shine?

Or am I going to be stuck with this illness?

I see the way people look at me

If they find me so interesting

Why don’t they take a picture

And put it up on their wall.

I want to find a way out

I’ve asked for God’s help

I’ve stood in the rain and gave up

But still nothing has changed.

I have two people I love

But I’m starting to believe

If you start life with nothing

You should end it with nothing too.

If you can hear me out there

I’m afraid I’m loosing touch with you

So please tell me how you feel

Because I need you to smile.

Spilling The Gravy Part 2

Maybe we’re crazy but
I can’t believe that we never did see
The road that we travelled
Just led to you and me,

Could you not see the flicker
In my eye as you walked by?
We proabably always knew
Perhaps we didn’t really see,

But here we are, just you and me
With three little words that lie between
Will we still be as strong as we are now
Or will we grow apart and break down?

I made an error in judgment
Maybe I was uncertain
When you said it started with an ‘s’
I never thought to think of a name,

But the words are out in the open
Can I be forgiven for my misfortunes?
Or are they going to haunt me when I see you?
I only wish i knew,

I should have looked at the little details
I made you smile, guilty is charged
Maybe it was when you were playing guitar
But I’m glad I was with you,

Forgive me if I come off as insane
Since we feel the same things
And think the same thoughts
Isn’t that a major sign of some sort?

Something I know is special
That you will soon behold
Is a shitload of truth
That could rip apart my heart,

My head is spinning like crazy
So I think I’ll end this on a short note
I’ve always liked you more than I should
But I was always scared to tell you the truth.

Untitled -- Unfinished

Now this is the shit that’s about to go down,
Your gonna cry like a girl when you fall on the ground,
The blood’s trailing behind you everywhere you crawl,
You’re in so much pain that you cry in vein.

The apocolypse is above us and you’re going down,
It’s gonna pull the flesh off your bones,
The blood will run like there’s no tomorrow,
Don’t back down, you’ve got to fight to stay alive.

You think your do hardcore,
But I’ll break your neck under my force,
Don’t you dare say you’re sorry,
You pissed me off and now it’s your turn to die.

Let’s bring in the guns and the hand grenades,
You’re gonna be on the ground even before you notice,
The rifle I shot and the grenade I threw,
Your limbs are missing as you lay in a surrounding pool of blood.

Hatred For Shit-less People

Do I have any friends?
Yeah I have plenty,
but I’d rather drown in your pity,
Go on make me your new charity case.

Look at me, do I look okay to you?
Your blind by nature but it’s time to see the torture,
No I’m not juviniel, look into the mirror,
And ask yourself, are you?

I see how your friends look at me,
They must be wondering what your doing with a lowlife like me,
They’re shouting for you to join them,
While you walk away you look over at me, I do nothing but glare as you walk away.

I see gatherings of people,
One person screams fuck you,
Let’s start a fight so I can rip your face off,
The blood will spatter, the girls will scream, but hey this is a fun game.

Your crawling on the floor,
Rolling over like a dog,
But I’m fucking glad your hurt,
Next time you shouldn’t open your mouth.

All you do is look at me when I fix my hair,
I’m the reason your heart skips a beat in fear,
Just leave with your friends before,
I beat the living shit out of you.

During lunch I’ll be in the corner or in the,
Bathroom stall alone, slitting my wrists,
When I see your face again you better run and hide,
‘Cause I’ve got a knife and I won’t hesitate to use it.

I can see your face now, your scared shitless,
Your friends have left you stranded and unprotected,
Now come on over here and show me what your made of,
You’ve started to protest but that was the wrong move.

Your laying on the floor now with my knife wrenched into you,
Your breathing is getting slower until you pass out dead,
Blood is everywhere and I am laughing ’cause you never,
Should have fucked with me in the first place.

Dear Mother, Dear Father

Dear mother dear father,
The scars on my wrists,
Are the side- effects your pain inflicts.
I can’t be the perfect daughter,
It’s just not in my destiny,
Look at all the blood that has dripped,
Your the cause of this mental state,
It’s your fault I suffer and mop,
Look into my eyes and see my hate.
Burn me at the stake and destroy my soul,
I’ll be the Serra Bellum left to behold.
I’ll come back from the dead to seek my revenge.
I have a way of moving on but the memories will always stay,
My head keeps pounding with your stupid infanities.
Bleve me when I say roses are red, violets are blue,
You’ve gotta say what you want, and mean what you say,
Before I scream ‘get the hell out of my face.’
I’m about to blast you with my intellect power,
These words fly out of my mouth like a harsh disaster,
Don’t stand in the line of fire or you’ll get blown over,
Take all of your bullshit and shove it down the drain,
I’m sick of hearing you plead and scream,
Your only hear to entertain.
I’ll make you dance and stand on your hands,
Your the victim of my new found game.

I Wonder

I want to know,
What it feels like,
To be wanted,
To be accepted in this world.
Watching light change colours,
Seeing a newborn baby,
Feeling whole and complete,
Is something I’ll never know.
If I’m so emo,
Why do you look at me,
As if you can see my non- existant soul.
You can’t admit you care,
The feelings just aren’t there.
I could walk in your shoes,
And discover a miricale,
But if you walked in mine,
You would understand why I hide,
Don’t judge me by apperance,
But by my soul, I no longer hold.
Life is adventerous, a journey of the unknown,
I’ll never know.
I will always lay alone.

For Jonathan, Micheal, And James

I will never be as talented as him,

His mind runs like wildfire,

As he writes words across the page,

Flying with tremendous speed,

Nothing could ever be that bold.

He can cast a life and make it full,

No one can take that toll.

I envy his selfless nature and beauty,

His radiance makes the riverside glow,

With love so rich and pure,

It can make the world swirl.

He is a beautiful nightmare that never ends,

A delicate flower that won’t die cold,

With grace and compassion,

Too powerful to spare,

His words float with truth,

They sway with delicacy that’s fairly rare.

He can stop a fight or change a life,

But his heart will never be tamed.

I can’t describe the love I feel for him,

It strikes like a poisonous snake,

Shooting venom into my veins,

Making any fierce animal beautiful.

I can’t comprehend his strength,

He can save lives, and live his life,

Without falling out or backing down.

I have the utmost respect for him,

With a heart so big it should crush the earth.

His overall features reflect his soul inside,

His mind runs like wildfire,

I will never be as talented as him.

Society Is Fucked

I’m under pressure,
People can see through me,
Suffocating,
Pulling me under,
Making it too hard to breathe,
I’m going under,
Into the depth of darkness,
My brain is shutting off,
My breath is slowly,
This is my time,
I’m going to die.
Nothing can save me,
I’m so alone,
And no one knows,
The pain I go through,
I need him for distraction.
I’m drying, going under,
Without his hands around me,
With him around, my fear is gone,
The scars on my arms dissapear,
But without him at my side,
I want to take a knife,
And cut my heart out,
Throw it on the floor,
And cut it up until it can’t beat anymore,
Nothing will make me sane,
The love I once longed for is gone,
And I’m dying in a world,
That’s too cold to bare through,
Putting me at risk and under pressure.
It pulls me deep under,
Unable to bring me back,
To the world I’ve always known.

Beyond Broken

My wrists are marked with scars,
Kept hidden under my clothes,
No One knows the torture I feel,
Exposed to pain and misery.
Reminding me that this,
Pain is adoring pleasure.
My heart is tattooed with your scars,
Bloos pulwes through my veins,
The razor blade allows the,
Blood to run free,
Coating my arms with red,
The stinging cuts radiate,
Giving me a rush, drawing me in,
I do it again, and again,
Until my tears stop streaming,
My cries are from sarrow,
Killing my self- esteem,
Concentration is key,
When I draw sharpness to my wrist,
My cries are all in vein.
If my soul would rip apart,
It would take my heart along with it.
My arms are giving off,
A sensation too strong to bound,
Blood is spilling onto the floor,
A puddle is starting to form,
I stare at it quietly,
As I think about what I’ve just done.
The rush I get is exillerating.
I can’t stop pushing the blade,
Into my arm and wrist,
One day, you’ll understand.
My feelings are inclosed in my heart,
They beat with grave sadness,
Allowing me to grab the blade,
And start over again.

Bulimia/ His Death/ Orange Juice

I’m kneeling on this floor,
The toliet bowl between my hands,
My knees hurt, my voice shakes.
I push my fingers down my hollow throat,
And watch as the discharge pours out,
I flush the toilet and collapse on the icy floor.
I can taste blood in my mouth,
But I’m too weak to stand back up.
I try to grab hold on the edge,
But I loose grip and fall back down.
There’s a knock on the door,
I thought no one was home,
A scream is followed by thunderous bands,
And I just lay there, helpless.
The screams are silenced and the pounding stops,
I can’t get up, I’m loosing control,
The floor gets colder by the minute,
I’m freaking out and my throat is sore,
I can’t take this toll, I have no control.
Screams are revised and I start to cry,
As I’m picked up, I’m told, I’m home.
But how can I be home if all I can think about is,
The next time I can throw up again,
My internal questions don’t mean anything,
If they can’t be answered.
I’ll just carry on and die, blood cold,
Until I learn that I’m not alone.

It hit me like a bullet,
He’s dead,
The boy I loved and cared for,
Is now gone, leaving me isolated.
His parents say it was an accident,
But I know the truth,
He committed suicide and suceeded.
I don’t understand,
We had a fight but it wasn’t all that bad,
There were tears and fears,
It all came down so fast,
And then he jumped,
Right off the bridge,
But I know it’s not what I did,
It was his choice,
And now he’s dead.

Orange juice falls off the table,
Glass shatters everywhere,
While orange liquid surrounds my feet.
Reaching for the broom,
I fall onto broken glass,
It punctures into me,
The orange juice explodes into a sea of red,
As I get up to examine my body,
I see the orange juice dripping off the table.
I grab a cloth and run it across the surface,
But it’s no good, the juice keeps runing downwards,
I grab the broom and start to clean the floor,
The juice dissapears slowly off the ground,
I pick up all the broken pieces of glass,
And place them in the trash.
Everything looks decent after a while of cleaning,
All this happened just by pouring a glass of orange juice.

Sweet Suicide/ Lingering Death

Watch as he walks with passion,
So sweet and devine it’s a crime.
Although he walks with grace an beauty,
He has a destructive soul that can’t decide,
Walking towards the west blown wind,
He carries a pistol in his hand,
Waiting until he reaches the bench,
Where he’ll take his life along the bend.
Lying slowly down onto the wood,
Hw whispers goodbye in his head,
The words of a true sacrifice.
Holding the gun to his head,
He pulls the trigger to create his death,
Lying on the wood, is a boy who never lived.
The beauty is gone and the deed is done,
A troubled soul is left to mourn.
The wind carries on, hiding the trace,
Of the boy who took his life,
With a fatel shot to the head.

Death is a stranger that stops to say hello,
Making the ground cold and the town isolated.
It walks around searching for victims,
Taunting and tourchering them,
As it watches them leave the corpse they one knew.
Death acts on impulse without a second glance,
Suffocating the innocent, murdering the guilty.
Death brings people down under,
Until there’s no one left.
No one gets a second chance,
When the reaper comes around,
Cutting and slicing up body parts,
Until all the blood runs dry.
Death will attack everyone you love,
Capturing their souls,
And destroying their hearts,
Leaving you alone and helpless.
Death will make you beg for your life,
And cry for a second chance.
It will push you so far down,
Until you have no remaining strength.
Waiting for the final beatdown,
You collapse in dispare,
Letting all your blood run out,
And as you look death in the eyes,
All you see is red.
Watching it fade into an executing black.
Death is a stranger that stops to say hello,
Making the ground cold, and the town isolated,
It walks around searching for victims,
Taunting and tourchering them.