A Higher Power.

Drinking this glass of water
I feel like an alcoholic,
Looking as these scissors
I feel like a murderer,

What's happening to me
Am I loosing my mind?
All I know is being ripped from under me
I wan to end this nightmare,

But I promised someone
I would stay till the end
But what if I can't stand the pain
And break down along the way?

If only the world would change
We could find a way to breathe,
The dagger in our heart
Would be silenced forever,

I'm connected to him like no one else
It's a way to keep us holding on
I can't wake up and be normal
I will never be what society wants of me,

My life feels like a horror movie
I'm the poor innocent girl
And everyone else are the monsters
I'm trying to escape from

I don't have a guardian angel
Sometimes I wish I did
Maybe then life would be better
But for now I'm stuck hiding under covers

Music is the only escape
A little screamo here and there
And I'll try to pretend everything's alright
Before I get slaughtered at midnight,

Where do we go life after death
Is it the praised heaven?
Or the darkened hell?
Either way our bodies hit the floor,

I used to think everyone was different
But when tradity hits
We all act the same way
Our dealth is our independance,

Christ isn't the saviour
And God's a scared bastard
Hiding from the darkness within people
He doesn't create miricles, he only kills people,

I'm not an Atheist
But so help me God, things have got to change
Why did you make all the world wars happen?
You're supposted to bring light not darkness over people,

Justice is only revenge in different words
Once upon a time, God had an angel
He disobeyed and fell from glory
He's now the devil we're all scared of,

I'm not an addict but I wish I was
I don't wear a halo but maybe it'd be cool
I'm not intelligent but I'm not stupid either
I'm just your regular suicidal girl.