Apologies Aren't For Meaning

I can't believe this all happened,
One minute it was rainbows and butterflies
And then it all turned into a slaughter house
Making the ground stain a dark red,

Whiskey and tylenol are anti-depressants,
Pistols and razor blades are long lost friends.
I can't calculate the amount of blood you've lost
But the carpet floor suggests a lot.

I tried to hold onto you with everything I had
But you slipped away from my tight grasp.
The sharp knife in your hand is taunting you,
And without a second thought the blood pours down.

This isn't a story of fairy-tail,
It's the ending of a life.
There's blood running down the streets
But the Devil's rolling in on vengence.

Demons will be singing the lullaby;
'Cry yourself to sleep baby,
The shadows in the darkness
Will kill you before sunrise'.

I've always been a fan of indulgence
So sweetheart go take what you want,
Stab the guilty and kiss the innocent
But don't forget to smile pretty.

I should have never fallen for those lies
It's like seeing a train and standing in the way,
The mind will remain crushed and broken
While the heart inside shatters away to nothing.

Death is such a parting sorrow,
And the horsemen makes it all possible.
There's no bright light, only black onyx
Who needs Heaven? We want Hell.

Blood, guts, and glory are lovely,
Your head on a stick sounds pretty.
Only, you're alive and vital
Is it time for some dismantle?

When you halluclnate you see only me
I'm wearing a white wedding gown and veil.
Your choking on your thoughtful vows,
I'm laughing as blood drips from your mouth.

There's no need to say you're sorry honey
Everyone already knows what you did,
I just hope she's good in bed
Because your fiance just walked away.

So, baby listen to my carefully
And spare me the heart ache,
Mess with a witch and you get burned
Liar.

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Lucifer Help Me.

I can't sleep with this ache
Eating me away inside my chest
I made a mistake and I'm sorry,
Those songs were all improvised.

I miss my future husband,
Are you still my fiance?
I don't deserve better than you
I deserve nothing for what I did

I know saying sorry
Deosn't make any of this okay,
I based those songs off of
The band Emmure and their lyrics

I know I hurt you
But I never meant to,
None of those words I wrote are true
Except "I fucking love you"

I hate myself so much
And what's worse is knowing
That I fucked up so bad
That you left

You said you can't do this anymore
But I still don't understand,
We got engaged hours earlier
Only for you to take it back

As strange as it may be,
I can see us sitting on a porch
Watching our grand-children play
While we sit old and grey.

I can't see life without you,
And I know you still love me
I make your heart beat fast,
Will you please give me a second chance?

My Greatest Mourn

Love is a series of events,
Some pleasant and some painful,
But going through everything with you
Makes it seem a lot worth while

I know I fucked up
And I know you did too,
But I don't care about that
The only thing that matters is this,

This love, this passion, this fire inside us
I go wild for the though of seeing you,
The thought of dancing with you
But I'm afraid I broke too many balloons

Balloons of romance and wanting,
Lyrics in songs are for entertainment
They hide deeper feelings beneath curtains,
I made a mistake and I'm paying for it

I know I write you too many poems
But it's the only romantic thing I know,
Honestly, I can't imagine life without you
Wandering around helpless in the world

But then I think of the times we've had
The laughter and the love we shared,
I can't make anything I've done dissapear
But I can't help myself but hope,

If it's not too late to cherish our love
Can I ask you something?
I'm so madly in love with you Josh,
Will you marry me?

Suicide Loves Cyanide -- Oliver Sykes Voice

Verse One:
(Screamed) Our love,
Is dying like the flowers in the vase
(Screamed) With fire,
(Echoed) That burns everything in vain

Our souls are being haunted
With the reincarnation of love
(Screamed) I remember all your fuckin' lies
But your so beautiful in the night

Chorus:
Until you see me draped in colour
(Whispered) I'll be dancing in the shadows
I'll be writing analogies on sheets of paper
(Screamed) Using blood from the floor as ink

(Screamed) Don't let me be alone
(Screamed) No,
This reflection is flawed
(Echoed) My heart's not in my fuckin' chest

Verse Two:
And if my body turns you on
We can move into the bedroom
(Screamed) Where there's red roses
(Whispered) Surrounded by white wine

We can stay there all night
(Screamed) `Till the sun rises and
Shines through the curtains with colours
(Echoed) That make the fuckin' ground bleed

Chorus:
Until you see me draped in colour
(Whispered) I'll be dancing in the shadows
I'll be writing analogies on sheets of paper
(Screamed) Using blood from the floor as ink

(Screamed) Don't let me be alone
(Screamed) No,
This reflection is flawed
(Echoed) My heart's not in my fuckin' chest.

Bridge:
(Screamed) Your eyes,
Are vacant of everything
(Echoed) Why am I standing here
If you don't even (Screamed) love me.

I didn't ask to love you
You're as complicated as a road map
(Screamed) I hate our fucking love
But I love the pain of the heart ache

End Verse:
(Screamed) Don't let me be alone
(Screamed) No,
This reflection is flawed
(Echoed) There's no heart in my fuckin' chest

(Screamed) It's in yours instead

January Is Vacant -- Oliver Sykes Voice

Verse One:
(Whispered) My eyes are scarred of horror,
My ears are broken of disturbance
(Quietly screamed) Telling me you love me,
(Growled) Is a fucking slap in the face.

(Low screams) I see the guilt on your face
It's all your fault and (Screamed) you're sorry
Well you know what?
(Screamed) You can go suck on John's dick.

Chorus:
(Low screams) Let me burn the house down,
With the past locked in the closet
(Screamed) I'll scream I need you
(Whispered) And throw out these fuckin' razors

Without you beside me
My lungs are failing
(Weak echoes) I surrendered my love to you
(Screamed) And you burned it to ash at my feet.

Verse Two:
I'll fill this vial,
(Screamed) With blood from my wrist
(Echoed) Only to pour it down your throat
To make you taste what you missed.

(Echoed) You're a cannibal of love
(Whispered) You kissed my soul from the inside out,
That whiskey you drank is tinted with death
(Screamed) And now your falling to the ground

Chorus:
(Low screams) Let me burn the house down,
With the past locked in the closet
(Screamed) I'll scream I need you
(Whispered) And throw out these fuckin' razors

Without you beside me
My lungs are failing
(Weak echoes) I surrendered my love to you
(Screamed) And you burned it to ash at my feet.

Bridge:
You told me you were mine forever
(Screamed) You fucking lied from your heart
(Echoed) And if I had it my way,
(Screamed) Lucifer would rip you to shreads.

Everything I've been fuckin' waiting for
Has come to a complete and bitter end
(Screamed) It's time to take your knife from my back
(Echoed screams) And slam it up your fucking ass.

Chorus:
(Low screams) Let me burn the house down,
With the past locked in the closet
(Screamed) I'll scream I need you
(Whispered) And throw out these fuckin' razors

Without you beside me
My lungs are failing
(Weak echoes) I surrendered my love to you
(Screamed) And you burned it to ash at my feet

End Verse:
You're here now
(Growled) Laying in the mud bleeding
There's only one thing to say,
(Screamed) I fucking love you.

You're My Valentine's

I wish I could see her,
This beautiful desire
You love so much,
But my vision can't focus.

She must be stunning
From what I've heard,
But I still don't comprehend
What makes you love her.

You say it's her body,
You say it's her heart
But I know for a fact
You're just blinded by love.

I can't say I'm sorry
For being a fool
But your craving for her
Is beyond wht I know.

I don't know how you feel,
Late at night alone in bed
Maybe you think of her
Laying naked beside you.

I wish I could see her,
Skinny and small like you say
But I can't see anything,
Just a dark cloaked figure.

One day I might see her,
Skinny and beautiful,
But for now I'll say I love you
And wait till tomorrow comes.

I'm A Harry Potter Nerd.

Someone once said
Religion is the heart
Of the world we live in
Whoever said that was right,

We all hold on to something,
A power greater than humans.
We praise it while we live
So we can be with it when we die.

I worship the Devil,
Maybe it's a sin on Earth
But as far as I'm concerned
I'll be dancing my way to Hell

You can call me a threat
And burn me at the stake
But you're only doing me a favour,
Hell is my glorified Heaven.

Just because I believe in something bigger
Doesn't make me mentally ill.
You love a God dressed in white with a halo,
I love a God standing beside demonic angels

Yes, I've read the bible
No, it wasn't Christian,
It was of a dark lord
Who protects me for eternity

You can call me silly,
You can call me stupid
But I have a religion
That I'll always believe in.