Lucifer Help Me.

I can't sleep with this ache
Eating me away inside my chest
I made a mistake and I'm sorry,
Those songs were all improvised.

I miss my future husband,
Are you still my fiance?
I don't deserve better than you
I deserve nothing for what I did

I know saying sorry
Deosn't make any of this okay,
I based those songs off of
The band Emmure and their lyrics

I know I hurt you
But I never meant to,
None of those words I wrote are true
Except "I fucking love you"

I hate myself so much
And what's worse is knowing
That I fucked up so bad
That you left

You said you can't do this anymore
But I still don't understand,
We got engaged hours earlier
Only for you to take it back

As strange as it may be,
I can see us sitting on a porch
Watching our grand-children play
While we sit old and grey.

I can't see life without you,
And I know you still love me
I make your heart beat fast,
Will you please give me a second chance?