I Don't Comprehend Your Leaving

They say time heals the broken
At least, that's what they tell me.
But it's never healed me,
I just keep sitting here waiting.

I miss everything I had,
His smile and his love.
But that's all gone now,
When I close my eyes it re-appears

I can't tell him that I miss him
Or that I long to be with him,
It wouldn't matter
All his feelings are in the past.

I know what it's like,
To feel broken, unloved and helpless
It's a brilliant nature
That can only be sympathized

I tried to move on,
I fell flat on my face.
I can't seem to get up
And the ground's suffocating.

I love you Joshua,
And I need you back.
I'm sorry we ended
But I'll stay if you ask me to.

Say you love me more
Then you ever have before.
I can't sleep without crying,
Or breathe without crushing.

Can't you feel the pain I do,
The feeling of depression.
The hole in my chest is back,
And it's only aching for you.

Please come back,
I'll be yours forever
And if you don't want me
I suppose I'll be okay.

I just don't understand
Why you no longer want me,
But I'll never know
You already said your goodbye.

Poetry On A Monday

Broken and discouraged
The effects of depression.
Suicide rotates in the mind
Suddenly hallucinations are real life.

For any relief of being numb
A shiny new blade is present,
But cure for feelings of want
Love appears only dismantled.

Now, tell me, what's worse;
Being burned alive,
Or frozen to death?
Neither, we still rot below ground.

Despair and loneliness
Is pleasure to happiness.
Music is a solid escape,
But only 'till the alarm clock rings.

You're distant and alone,
Screaming on your knees
As you stumble in the mud,
But what are you looking for?

Dreams crumble beneath us,
Blood runs from consequence.
Mental breakdowns cause explosions,
An endless disaster of corruption.

Eyeliner stains the rosy cheeks
As infinite tears stream constant.
My eyes are nothing but mournful,
Does that explain how my day goes?

Sorry, But No.

That poem means nothing to you, I know it doesn't.
Why?
Because I'm just another girl that you look to destroy.
Since the day we first dated, you were already cheating.
You were texting other girls that I didn't know about,
How do I know this?
It's pretty obvious when a guy freaks out that his girlfriend has his phone
You left at the most random times when we were together,
Why?
You probably got attached to one of those other girls.
I'm not stupid, I'm not worthless, I'm just rational.
Rational enough to know that I love you,
Love the pain that you give me and the love you fake.
You said your days playing games were over and done with,
You lied.
You lied once, you lied twice, you even lied a third time.
I've always been lied to, I've been cheated on and I've been ignored.
But you're something different.
You must feel like you have to play girls hearts, but you're wrong.
You don't have to do anything, you're a runner and you always leap away.
I said I would be your friend, but I can't stand being bluntly lied to.
I can't. It almost killed me once, and I'd rather not have it happen again.
But I can't date you, I won't marry you, and you aren't deserving.
Why?
Because you can't even tell me that you're talking to girls,
Flirting, kissing, and sleeping with them.
I''m not to be played with like a toy, ever.
And yet you're still wondering why I take you back all the time,
The truth is, I thought you'd change each time.

Mirrors Capture The Soul.

A blast from loneliness into companionship.
A flower blooms in the summer and
It's beautiful and dominant
Just like mother nature intended.

Nothing could ever be more delicate than you,
You're feautres are nothing but symmetrical.
A train is fast and sturdy as it travels a distance
My heart is a captivating simile of that.

Nothing is more enchancted than your kiss,
Sweet, powerful, and seductive in the same breath.
You have me in a trance of persuasion,
Of lust and love combined with your elegant touch.

Danger and recklessness is underlined and bolded
But I'll risk my life to see your smile surround me.
There's a note at the bottom and it reads pre-caution,
Pre-caution of what? Endless Serotonin?

Danger is fun when I'm with you,
Love is endless when I'm beside you.
I feel happiness when I'm held by you,
And endless depression when you're gone.

I won't have to take any Tylenol,
No gun shots or knife cuts,
Nothing malicious when you're here,
But only everything amazing instead.

Keep your windows open,
And your doors unlocked
I'll sneak in around midnight
So I can fall asleep with you.

Tag, You're Mine.

I want to lay here with you,
As still as grass in the winter.
I can't believe I'm with you
Captured in your arms of love.

The intentions of your words
Are true and meaningful
You appear to me like
A beautiful soliloquy

I love you in my life
You give me hope to live,
And power to get up in the morning
So I can see your pretty face.

Our passion for each other
Is a lullaby stuck on repeat
As we dance in the meadows
That separates our houses.

I can't imagine life,
Life without you,
Life without me,
Life without us together.

Emotions are louder than words
Louder than gunshots in an open alley.
I can see inside of your heart
And your emotions are bleeding love.

I could rip out your heart
And replace it with my own,
But that be cruel and cannibalistic
So instead, I'll simply just kiss you.

The truth is if you weren't mine
I would be tempted to steal you,
Like a chocolate muffin in the kitchen
And I would keep you forever.

A Higher Power Indecency (Rhetoric)

Someone once said that religion is the heart of the world we live in, and whoever said that was right.

Now, I know what most of you must be thinking, is she going to stand up there and inform us about her religion? Well you'd be wrong, I'm going to stand before you all and hope that you'll take what I have to say into your own personal education.

My religion is not Christian, in fact, it is the complete opposite of most people in the world.

I have a higher power and his name is Lucifer, which most, if not all of you know him as the Devil.

Lucifer. Scary name isn't it?

Well not exactly; the only thing that makes you squirm at that name is the information society has told you. The misjudged information that insults Satanists all over the world.

I stand before you to challenge the wisdom of the world and question your ethics and morals. Every God has a story and I'm about to tell you the Devil's.

To this day, most Christians and other religions believe that God created Adam and Eve and they were the first two people to roam the Earth. Satanists would say that this is tampered with information -- believe it or not, the old story you've been told is missing a key point. God created a man named Adam and a women named Lilith. When God made these two people he asked the garrison of angels to love these humans more than he.

Lucifer said no.

He loved God too much and refused to bow down to humanity. When Lucifer disobeyed God he turned Lilith into the first demon ever created, to which the Arch Angel Michael forced Lucifer to fall from glory down into a darkened pit called Hell, where he remains bounded behind 666 seals.

God then created Eve so that the world could carry on with the human race like the way he first envisioned it.

Lucifer appears to many as a horrible creature who causes the evil in the world.

Satan is evil?

Look at how many people and animals die each day because of "God's will". The word "Devil" originated from the Indian word "devi" which means "god" not evil.

I see Lucifer as a strong, beautiful, misunderstood dark lord who is a kind and generous God who should be worshipped.

The God in Heaven made the four Horsemen: Pestilence, Death, Famine, and War, and mostly everyone on Earth has to endure the pain of each one which they live through out their lives.

Lucifer is not evil nor a threat -- he's common sense.

I stand before you today to tell you some laws of Satanism. You will soon come to realize that they aren't a form of blasphemy, but instead a code of morals.

1. To start with, do not give your opinions or advice to someone else unless you are asked to do so.
2. Do not tell your problems to others unless you are positive that they want to hear about them.
3. When you are present in someone's house, show them respect or do not go there.
4. Do not take what does not belong to you unless it is a burden for the other person and they're relieved you did so.
5. Do not harm little children.
6. Do not kill animals unless you're being attacked or using them as food.
7. When walking into a public area, bother no one. If someone is to bother you, ask them to stop. If they fail to do so, destroy them.
8. And finally, do unto others as they do unto you.

Humans are animals by nature.

We're frail people who have the seven deadly sins present inside of us. God teaches his believers to hold back from the most enjoyable things in life, as opposed to the Dark Lord who teaches indulgence; to take what you want without regret, to find pleasure in something and do it to the most extreme extent you can.

However, indulgence is not consumption.

The God many people have faith in states that if one or more of the seven deadly sins -- lust, gluttony, pride, greed, sloth, envy, and wrath -- are committed, it is seen as disobedience and/or disgrace. Lucifer recognizes that humans have wants and needs inside of themselves, and he is a representation of all these so-called sins. These all lead to physical, mental, and emotional gratification.

Lucifer may be the Devil, but only by fear and societal misconception.

I have always followed two important passages that I have adopted from the Dark Lord. Number one, lack of perspective is crutial because someone should never lose sight of who and what they are, and what threat they can be by their existence. And lastly, herd conformity should never be pursued. Do not follow the path of the crowd surrounding you, and never conform to a person's wishes unless it benefits you in the end.

At the end of the day, regardless of who has a religion, you need to believe in it no matter what happens in your life, whether that be good or bad. Someone should never lose faith in their higher power even if society believes that your God is a threat to human nature.

Please consider all that I have said. You can call me a disturbance to society but I'm only asking for respect and understanding. I have a religion that I'll always believe in.